"Selfish Reasons to Have More Kids"

I love love love babies and kids and have always wanted to be a mother.  In college at BYU my roommate said that I should major in “kids,” and I SO wished that was possible.  Everyday my freshman year I passed by the preschool on campus and saw little hand print pictures and longed to be a part of that.  When I learned that I could, I became an Early Childhood Education major.  It was so much fun!  I learned so much about teaching kids, was actually able to work with kids at the preschool, and had a total blast.  But by the time I was ready for student teaching, I had two kids of my own and it was going to be way too much for this aspiring stay-at-home mom.  So I changed my major to Marriage, Family and Human Development and I graduated with a BS in that.

I got married at 18, had 2 kids by 21.  Now that I’m 30, we have 4 kids.  I wish we had more but it didn’t happen that way.  We do plan on having at least one or two more but it’s been a long time coming to that decision.  Since I have previously wanted to have as many as 15, you’d think that this would be a no-brainer.  But there is another factor to throw into the mix, and that is Generalized Anxiety Disorder and recurring depression.  All moms (and all people, for that matter) deal with anxiety and depression to some extent, maybe even a lot.  But like many people out there, I have it so badly that it is incapacitating.  I get so anxious that I can’t go to bed because I’m too busy checking doors to make sure they are locked, or just being scared in general.  On the flip side, sometimes I’ll sleep almost all day because every time I think of all my inadequacies and all the things I have to do, I completely shut down.

Sometimes I think I’m crazy (haha, get it? crazy?) that with my mental illness I would still want to have more kids.  But my mental illness is not the same thing as my personality, which means that as much as my own kids stress me out, and I will not be able to have 15 kids, I still want more.

I recently read a book called, Selfish Reasons to Have More Kids: Why Being a Great Parent is Less Work and More Fun Than You Think, and it was so encouraging!  I realized that I am not crazy for wanting a big family, I’m just feeling too guilty about my inadequacies.  You don’t have to be the perfect parent and your kids will still turn out fine.  To an extent, your kids will turn out to be who they are going to be regardless of what you do.  Obviously abuse and/or neglect can ruin a child, and we do affect our kids for better or worse.  But each kid comes to us with a certain personality and always has free will whether we teach them right or not.  Even the perfect parent, God himself, has evil children.

But the fact is that most kids turn out to be decent people and there’s not much we can do to make them much better or worse.  According to this book, a little TV time for the kids, “me” time for you, and an enforced “nap time” until they’re 6, isn’t going to hurt, and may help significantly.  Apparently, kids care more about having happy, de-stressed parents than having them at their beck and call or even at every little league practice.

The author of the book, Bryan Caplan, says that we should think, not of how many children we can handle NOW, but of how many grandkids we want to have in the future.  The diaper changes, sleepless nights and potty training are only temporary, but grandkids will last a lifetime.  Of course all this should be taken in moderation.  You shouldn’t have more kids than you can really handle and afford, but if you take good care of yourself, and worry less about ruining your kids, maybe you can have more than you thought you could, and thus have more fun in the future with those little grandbabies!

A year ago I definitely could not handle another one.  This year, it’s iffy.  Next year, I totally want to have another one. Even though 10 minutes ago I was telling my sister how much these little ones are driving me crazy with the screaming and whining, I look at this picture of my family after a game of “Flashlight Hide-and-Go-Seek” and think, who wouldn’t want to have this much fun, and wouldn’t it be even more fun with a few more?

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  1. Excellent post Crystal. I’ll admit I wanted more than two, but genetics tell us otherwise. And most days, two seems just a pinch past my meager abilities. I deal with the depression & anxiety issues too – though my doc is extremely surprised how I cope during depressive episodes. I do, however, have days that I hope my kids don’t remember.

  2. And this is why I LOVE YOUR POSTS! You just summed up a lot of feelings of my own….Thank you for sharing! 😛 ~Kristine

  3. you are not the only one! I marvel at your writing skills, You have written yet another wise filled blog and council for many. I’m going to check out that book, sounds like worthwhile reading.

  4. Crystal you are such a great mother. You are so kind and patient with your children. Any child would be lucky to have you as their mother…so you should have as many as you feel are out there waiting to be born into your family. 😉

  5. Crystal you are such a great mother. You are so kind and patient with your children. Any child would be lucky to have you as their mother…so you should have as many as you feel are out there waiting to be born into your family. 😉

  6. Crystal you are such a great mother. You are so kind and patient with your children. Any child would be lucky to have you as their mother…so you should have as many as you feel are out there waiting to be born into your family. 😉

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