Sometimes (more often than not) I feel like a hamster on a wheel running and running and never getting anywhere. I do the same things over and over and over again and then have to do them all over AGAIN. It all feels so pointless. I mean, didn’t I JUST give the girls a bath…last week?
And didn’t I just sweep the floor?
wash and dry the laundry,
fold the laundry,
put away the laundry,
put away dishes (which I actually don’t do, but I’m sure my son could do without it),
wipe down the counters,
wipe down the table,
wipe my kids’ faces,
brush my teeth,
brush the kids’ teeth,
remind the kids to go to bed…again,
clean out the car,
vacuum the car,
Armor-all the car,
Windex the car windows,
wash the car,
clean the bathrooms, all 3 of them, including mirrors, toilets, and bathtubs,
teach Primary at church,
go grocery shopping,
put away the groceries (I HATE that part),
dust (who am I kidding, I never dust. But if I did I would just have to do it over again),
and the queen mother of all things I have to do over and over again is shower. I like to be clean, hence why I do it every day even when I put off the cleaning, but geez, it’s a pain. Especially rinsing conditioner out of my hair, that takes forever!
I would be fine with any one of these things if I could do them once and be done with them. Heck, I’d even dust. And then there are the things I should do but don’t, like dust, wash windows, clean fingerprints and crayon off the walls, retouch chipped paint, clean the baseboards, clean out my hell-hole of a closet, and take down spider webs. But if I did any one of these things I would just have to do them again. And since CPS isn’t going to investigate me for not doing those things, I don’t do them at all. Maybe someday I will, but I surely won’t do them AGAIN, because that would just be pointless.